When I Say

• When I say it’s cold then it’s cold
• when you say no it isn’t cold then it isn’t cold
• same difference having so much to give or take what else
• while elsewhere oh full moon celebrating the darkness of what is
• one foot in front of the other stepping out without now or then
• excusing the disappearance of who goes there
• not getting lost in explanations not everything needs to be commented on
• having read the news today a new heart radar can predict death days ahead
• yes days ahead days ahead like the park bench always vacant
• hoping I will need to make a decision and I’ll sit there one day to make the decision
• hoping that I will forget whatever the decision was that I had made
• knowing that I will always witness the place where I had made the decision
• knowing now the bench I see doesn’t matter it’s.looking that matters
• hoping that one day the bench will be gone I can go and stand there
• arms extended holding the absent bench in much the manner imitating a cross
• decisions come and go and benches remain vacant
• I am never going to be the same I mutter to myself
• simply an attempt to disparge the days ahead
• tonight in a dream I’ll certainly be carrying the bench across my shoulders
• bench beneath the overhanging weeping willow everyday in the days ahead
• weed covered lot near the bus stop for there’s always tomorrow’s newspaper
• not to mention the next day and the next for you read the news today oh boy
• while all around you at your birthday party everyone’s forgetting your name