Pallid. pallid, as in morning. pallid in me, as those are merely pallid remarks, I said. How are you? she smiled. I said, I’m pallid, suppressing my giggles. She was only being nice, walked on. I thought why did I say it, if giggles made it were from it, a joke? Tired enough not to write if there was someone around to be pallid with. weakly beginning the section I dreamed of, not asleep, but I thought of, like with desire, I thought with desire of, I thought longing of, I longed for. weakly beginning it, and being caught pallid in my mind’s confusion, the section of my writing, gone. I longed for it as I thought of it complete. but wouldn’t go.