Is There a Diary

Is there a diary nearby or a funeral throw a cushion my way for the hell of it with a heavenly question seeking just another memory in italics my need to send a letter home the home that’s no longer there constant effort emphasizing same sameness of old habits with new stories it’s all just in case so welcome to just in case meaning of course to be scared without being scared emphasizing beingness and non-beingness hopefully bringing into being just what I came here for the testimonial will surely be in tomorrow’s mail arriving as usual just as I am putting the remaining ashes on the burnt out fire celebrating ashes to ashes