Diatribe

When the world gets you down he says it’s no joke it won’t let you alone in the world give up you’re not the only one in the world who can’t stand to live with yourself the world is always there hammering at you like you’re some crazy nail that holds the world together you got to be crazy you better leave me out of this are you some kind of a masochist all you want is the world to get off your back you don’t want much you only want what everyone in the world wants you want to run away from the world and hide your little worthless feelings inside a barrel where they won’t get damaged but the world will get you even there I bet you haven’t learned about loneliness have you you haven’t ever heard what death is death isn’t something that you can take or leave whenever you want to don’t you know what pain is just what do you think the world is for who in the world do you think you are what are you going to do in the world with your life you’ve got no principles shit do you plan to lie back and make the world give you everything that you need in the world haven’t you learned what’s two and two what’s the matter with you you’re just fucking crazy that’s what you don’t know what’s up and what’s down what do you want from me you don’t really want me to pat you on the back and tell you that everything’s all right do you because that’s a lie isn’t it you know you can’t ever get away from the world and all the pain and shit and things that are getting you down just try to stand when the world is on your back and see how far you get you won’t get an inch you don’t know a thing about life you’re helpless and you know it your problem is that you’ve never had to get out in the world and fight for yourself you’ve always been able to hide away from the world under your mother’s skirts you sissy well not anymore I’m telling you starting right now you’re going to realize that the world isn’t as you imagine it to be the world isn’t all pillows and fantasies no sir the world is full of contradictions and people who like nothing better for dinner than to eat some young kid’s balls the world likes nothing better than to see you squirm than to sit on you until you turn blue until you yell uncle crying like you think that you’re the only one in the world who has a hard time but you don’t want to know the truth you don’t want to listen to the world sure you must think I’m lying don’t you you must think you’re too good for the world you must have a brain made of wood you must think you’re really something sure I bet you think that you’re the most important person in the world don’t you I bet you think that you’re going to live forever but you’re wrong you think the world is a nice world but it isn’t it’s a dirty fucking dog eat god world hell why don’t you ask someone whose wife committed suicide if this is a nice world why don’t your ask a refugee of the war if this is a nice world why don’t you ask me if this is a nice world haven’t I suffered enough god I’ll tell you I’ll tell you that the world is a shitty world listen to me I know I’ve been around you haven’t learned nothing until you’ve slit a man’s throat until you’ve been kicked in the crotch by someone you loved until you’ve really hated I mean hated I don’t mean that patting each other on the back that passes for emotion that’s not what life is all about the world isn’t like that why don’t you get out in the world and earn for yourself why don’t you try to fall in love and see how easy it is why don’t you try to be happy and learn what frustration is there’s no meaning in the world if you don’t believe me then you can just go to hell that’s what you can do that’s right what you need in the world isn’t warmth and sanity what you need is a little straightening out you need a good sound kick in the ass that’s what you need all right you need to suffer a little so you can see what it’s all about you need to grow up you need someone to show you around and pat you on the back don’t you don’t make me laugh you don’t want much you only want paradise you only want to fall in love and live happily ever after you only want to believe in yourself and let that be your damn salvation hell why don’t you go ahead and try it well why don’t you do just that don’t listen to me I’m nobody and go ahead the world is waiting for you the world is patting you on the back of the head you fool the world is just what you think it is the world you don’t need me go out in the world get yourself hurt why don’t you do just that what do I care do just that the world is just what you think it is

3 October 1972